dedicated to my only best friend...

teruntuk satu-satunya teman yang selalu tak pernah henti mengingatkanku..


terimakasih untuk kamu, yang selalu mampu menerimaku
tanpa harus mengeluhkan sifat burukku.


terimakasih untuk selalu mengerti
tentang segala apa yang terjadi dalam diriku..

terimakasih karena mampu membaca kegelisahaan
yang mungkin terkadang aku pun tak mampu mengatakan..

terimakasih karena menjadi satu-satunya teman,
yang mampu mengerti dan memahamiku
disaaat aku pun tak mengerti diriku..

karena selalu menjadi telinga
saat aku berkeluh kesah..

karena tak pernah lelah
untuk membela ku disaat aku tak perlu dibela

menjadi satu-satunya yang mau
berada disana, disaat yang lain menjauh

satu-satunya yang mau menyayangiku
meski diriku tak pernah pantas disayangi..

yang tak pernah bosan dengan segala keburukkan
yang tak pernah henti mengatakan kepada ku
bahwa aku istimewa,
meskipun sebenarnya tidak....

terimakasih, karena telah menjadi
satu-satunya teman yang tak pernah menyerah
dan selalu sanggup mencintaiku
meskipun sebenernya aku bukan seorang yang pantas
untuk di cintai.....

tak terbantah..

hay kamu...

aku rindu kamu, setiap malam menangisimu..
dimana aku bisa menemuimu??
akan kah ada lagi hari-hari yang akan membawaku
kembali ke masa dimana kita masih
di satu tempat yang sama,,
memandang ke arah yang sama...
haruskah aku memohon kepadamu,
menghinakan diriku agar kau sedikit saja tau
perasaaan ini, yang aku alami...

detik jam rasanya takkan cukup
untuk menghitung, berapa kali aku memikirkanmu..
aku tak tahu apa yang kurasa,,
jika kau tersiksa karena apa yang aku rasa,
maka aku sangat terluka dengan apa yang ku pendam..

tolong,
beritahu aku, kemana harus ku bawa rindu ini??
kemana harus ku buang rasa ini??
aku hanya ingin bersamamu...

tolong, mengertilah,,
aku berharap jika suatu saat,
kau menemui halaman ini,
membacanya dan belajar memahaminya..

hingga terbuka hatimu,
untuk sebentar saja mengenalku....


dear, syhrz....

no one else (more than blue)

even though
i am reborn a thousand more times
there will not be another like you,
the one who would warm up my sad life.
for that person, my heart could be hurt definitely..

there is no other love in this world
that could make my chest shiver
with a such anticipation..

i have buried so deep in my memories
my only love to someone like you
all the painful tears 
i could endure it indefinitely..

even though i can't tell "i love you"
the fact i am able to
look at you from far away
give you everything and love you
although i am sad, i am happy..

i don't want anything, except
your laugh, with it, i will be happy
because love is about giving everything,
only about giving..
so, although i am sad, i am happy....

because i am a woman..

I just cant understand the hearts of men,
They tell you they want you and then they leave you.
This is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy,


I heard that if you give up things too easily
To a man, he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong..
A girl says that she will never be fooled again,
But she will fall in love again..

You should have told me you didn't like me any more,
But I couldn't see that and you just rushed me,
Although I will curse you I'll still miss you,
Since I am a girl, to whom love is everything..


hey babe, the pain
It's not enough to describe how i feel
We were so happy together
But I know now, I've been blind
You told me that you'd never let me down
Whenever I needed you you'd always be here,
I can forgive but I cant forget
Even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you..

Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
And her caring instinct
I didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

no name..

My body is not perfect,
I don't walk with confidence,
I get into fights with my parents and friends.
Some nights i'd be rather be by my self than out partying.
I cry over the smallest things sometimes.
There are days that I get through with forced smile
and fake laughs.
Sometime I try to convince my self that things are okay
when they're not.

I'm not ugly but I'm not beautiful.
I don't look as good in real life as I do in pictures.
There are some nights that I cry myself to sleep.

I constantly think I'm not good enough.
I'm imperfect, but I'm perfectly me..

it happens everytime

it happens everytime.
people lose interest in me.
they get tired of me.
suddenly, they don't bother hitting me up anymore.
they forget about me
and i just become a distant memory. 
i wonder if it's my fault, sometimes.
but, then i realize that the people never stay in my life..

and theres nothing i can do about...

its only love, right?

dear : Mr. H


for some peoples, i'm might be crazy
for your friends, i'm just a freak
but for my friends, i'm just stupid
for being acts like this...


its not about how you looks,
its not about how it comes,
but its all about how i feel...


i dont mean to be stalkers for you,
for looking straight at you when you at there,
i just wonder, how the perfect man like you
could be fall like an angel in front of me??

and i know, i'm just a foolish for you...

i dont know what is it?
and i dont need an answer for this..
i just need you to be always in there,
and being my inspiration without do anything..

i dont expect too much for all this,
for being with you,
i just let it happen in my dreams or
my after life..

because, for being someone special
in angel hearts like you,
it could takes so many things
i would sacrifice...

namanya SrHz

aku tak tau saat kapan dimana semua ini bermulai...

kamu bagiku adalah alasan-alasan
mengapa aku terjaga sepnajang malam,
mengapa aku berjalan dikoridor itu sepanjang hari,
mengapa aku terdiam, menangis dan tertawa,
dan mengapa aku berlutut dan berdoa disepanjang musim...

aku pernah jatuh cinta,
tapi belum pernah merasakan yang lebih keras dari ini..
menyaksikan dirimu yang emakin hari, semakin membenciku
memandangi mu disaat kau memalingkan wajahmu,

aku pula yang menikmati rasa sakit,
saat kenyataan hidup tak pernah membawamu ke dalam hidupku...


aku mencintaimu srhz,,
bahkan saat kau hanya mengacuhkanku,
aku masih bisa tersenyum,
dalam tangisku....